like the back of my hand.

I always forget just how big the ocean is.  I’m protected in my little neighbourhood, and by the mountains surrounding the bay.  I can’t see the horizon lines anywhere.

Returning home after spending a week in the neverending prairies, I realized just how much I don’t see.  The view out of the plane window gave me butterflies.  It was like learning something new about a lover and falling for them all over again; someone whose body is so familiar that you could draw them from memory.  Every curve, every scar, so etched into your brain that you can remember it years later when you’ve started etching someone else’s curves and scars into your memory. 

I know my life here well, but perhaps it’s time to take a little walk down the street, around the corner and down a road I haven’t been on before.

what’s mine is mine, and what’s yours is yours.

 

I just had a relationship end.  Two nights of intense, heartfelt and completely candid talking culminated in us saying goodbye.  There just wasn’t enough chemistry.  And we faked it for a long time.  There’s a lot more to it than that, but there always is, isn’t there?  It’s never a simple story.  Yes, it can be broken down into the basic elements, but the whole story still exists.  That deeper story is very real to the people living it, but it’s not that important to the spectators.  And that’s ok.  No one else but the two people involved can ever truly know what happened or what was felt.  Other people can relate based on their own experiences, but it’s never quite the same, really. 

 

That’s the good thing about relationships that end – you will learn from the experience because something about it will be different than any experience you’ve ever had.